being with God

A reflection on my spiritual life in the past year...

There have been times that I've been strong and close to God. There have been times where I hadn't a clue what I was doing and therefore drew close to God.

I want to hold a certain someone accountable. But every time I think about it, I am reminded that I am just as troubled in my own walk with God.

I truthfully don't know where to read in the Bible. Yes, me, the one that's gone to church most of her life, the one that does Bible quizzing. I think what's blocking me is my mentality that I've read most of the Bible, and therefore I don't know what else to do.

I have become very independent this year, being away from home and having to take care of myself without my mom continually reminding me of what I need to do. This is reflected in my relationship with God...I do what I can on my own, and then I "resort" to asking for help.

I also am not sure if I am where God wants me. And that can mess up my relationship with Christ, if I am not truly obedient in all things.

This summer I need to work on my patience with certain people, and find some sort of Bible study to do, and really get grounded in my faith.

I've been trying to trust God in my whole summer job search, because He's the one in charge.

Adam and I want to go watch the da Vinci Code, and I feel like I need to be extremely grounded in my faith before I watch it.

a new Matt Redman song: "You Never Let Go"
Even though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle
of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know You are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Chorus:
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming
for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on this earth

Bridge:
Yes i can see a light that is coming
for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still i will praise You, still i will praise You