Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

2008 in Review

Overall highlights:

Travels:
Vermont
El Paso x2
Chicago x2
Ukraine
Unintended overnight stays in Warsaw, Poland and Fishkill, NY.
Newark, DE to visit Anne!
Lancaster, PA to hang out with Olivia

New Experiences:
Lots of snowmobiling!
Swing dancing
Learning Russian and a smidgen of Ukrainian
Running over the universal joint of a bus (and subsequently damaging my car)
Surprise weekend visit to my family
Catering on campus (and getting to enjoy tasty food)
Ninja tag, Ultimate Frisbee, short runs on Wolly Beach in the middle of the night
Michael W Smith / Steven Curtis Chapman concert
Red Sox game @ Camden Yards

Goodbyes:
Professors that moved (Doc/Prof to Chicago, Prof Fiacco to TX)
Mrs. Quimby, high school AP Calc teacher. You will be missed.
ENC Class of 2008
old Marley Park church building

Ukraine (gets its own section):
Meeting Charly and inhaling hot glue fumes (by accident!) and good times all night long on the deck. Exploring Kiev. Traveling by overnight train. Building relationships with families. Blowing bubbles with Katya and playing catch with Sveta. Playing with 3 year old twin boys who seemed to get in trouble all the time. Facing suffering, and finding that worship is the only feasible response. Attended a Ukrainian wedding and reception. Running over a tire-stopper-block (for semi trucks), but this time I wasn't driving! Seeing the end of the line for banana boxes of humanitarian aid. VBS's all around. Going to the Vapnyarka bazaar and meat market on my birthday. Using squatty potties. Eating dried fish, salo, and chicken-flavored potato chips. Tumbleweed Gulch Ukrainian-style. God keeping us safe throughout our travels.

Spiritual highlights:
Got baptized.
Trying to figure out if God is calling me to missions.
Having more questions than answers (not really a highlight, not sure how to describe it).

Academic highlights:
Declared a religion minor.
Education Club activities
Finishing all my major classes (only student teaching and an independent study left!)

Next year is going to bring just as many changes, I'm sure.
Ready or not, here I come, 2009!

Saturday, January 05, 2008

How time flies...

Four years ago, I returned from a trip to Nicaragua.

Three years ago, I was a senior in high school.

Two years ago, I was on my way to Belize and Guatemala.

One year ago, I was taking a J-term course called Human Exceptionalities, for working with special needs students.

Six months ago, I was in Mexico (this was the day Joel brought Angela back to us, we cleaned some of the Sunday School rooms, and we went door to door to evangelize!).

Six months from now, I will be somewhere in the Ukraine. Wow!

One year from now, I will begin my time as a student teacher somewhere in Quincy, MA.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

mi vida.

This past weekend in Maine was pretty much amazing, in terms of fun and in terms of ministry stuff. Basically, not only did I get to hang out and have cool conversations with people, but I also got to help with junior high Sunday School, and lead Children's Church (I was totally applying some of what I learned in Ed Psych, it was crazy). I've learned that Prof is a fan of the "trial by fire" or "sink or swim" method of teaching you skills. Before Friday night, I didn't know that I'd be working with the Children's Church group. Before Saturday morning, I didn't know that I'd be primarily responsible for figuring stuff out. It more or less happens that upon arrival to a weekend, I find out close to exactly what I'm doing. But hey, it really helps you grow.

Here are just a few more words about the weekend.
~ministry: Sunday School, Children's Church, testimony time, mingling
~fun: sledding, games, Mafia, etc.
~injuries: chipped tooth, sprained ankle, injured knee, hitting upside the head
~studying
~doing rounds of quizzing to determine shower and eating order
~conversations
~sledding on old plastic caf trays from Rick

I also collected a ton of quotes. :)

*Jen on the phone: “Z as in xylophone”
*Jen S: “Do we have to go through New Hampshire?”
*Jess: “Oh look, this snow is powdery” (right foot plunges into snow)
*Jocey: “No! I don’t wanna be a druggie, gosh!”
*Jess: “Who needs vegetables at dinner when you can eat popcorn?”
*Jen: “We do not practice personification here”
*Joel: “I’m a perfectly normal and sane person…compared to the play”
*Sondra’s dream that Prof was on drugs
*Hannah: “It’s called a quiz meet, not a hangout meet”
*Prof: “Smack me if you want—it’ll still hurt”

*Joel: “Someday I want to be laughed with, not at”
Jen: “Say something funny and I’ll laugh with you”


*Prof (about Bible study): “And what does that mean?”
Hannah: “Studying the Bible”

*News headline on Yahoo: “Bush has two moles removed from temple” (this could totally be taken two different ways)
*Lucas: “Who would you like to violently evaporate?” (playing Mafia)
*Jen: “Welcome to New Hampshire! ...I mean Massachusetts!”
*Sondra: “What is it about us with men?” (to Deborah during a game of Guess Who?)
*Deborah: “You’re just gonna lay in a cold box for the rest of your...oh. You’re already dead.”
*Jen: “Belch it out, guys” (for singing)
*Sondra to Billy: “Just think, you could be related to Joel.”
*Joel to Becky: “Much as I love you, I just can’t marry you.”

*Joel: “Are you quizzed out?”
Ryan: “Yes”
Joel: “Why do I get the feeling you’re lying?”

*(Hannah knocks chair over)
Joel/Jess, at the same time: “Shhhh!!!” (laughter) … “She just made a joke and she doesn’t know it.”
Hannah: “What joke?”

Today was the Ash Wednesday chapel. I learned that Sundays are feast days, in which you can enjoy what you've given up for Lent, as a way of celebrating and looking forward to the Resurrection. I definitely need this time of Lent, to be able to figure out (or try to at least) what God wants me to do. And you know, without Facebook to continuously check, there's only so much you can do online (so it seems right now). Hopefully I really use that freed-up time to actually read my Bible and pray.

I got to talk to Jen for a good long while tonight...It was really cool. I made fun of her at times, but all in good fun. Erin comes tomorrow to visit for Honors weekend, and I'm pretty excited. :)

I caught a glimpse of Your splendor
In the corner of my eye
The most beautiful thing I've ever seen
And it was like a flash of lightning
Reflected off the sky
And I know I'll never be the same

Show me Your glory
Send down Your presence
I want to see Your face
Show me Your glory
Majesty shines about You
I can't go on without You, Lord

When I climb down the mountain
And get back to my life
I won't settle for ordinary things
I'm gonna follow You forever
And for all of my days
I won't rest 'til I see You again

Show me Your glory
Show me Your glory
I can't live without You

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Science & Religion class

The following is taken from an email that I sent my cousin, talking about my classes. This is what I wrote about Science & Religion. I'm essentially still trying to figure things out (if they CAN be figured out at all).

"It seeks to explore the science and religion debate over the years. I'm still working on figuring out what I believe about creation vs. evolution. Maybe it's NOT an either/or answer. Maybe it's both. Maybe God created the universe and got things going, and enabled creation to do what He did: create.

"Then again, maybe we will never know and it's one of those mysteries that requires us to simply say, "Wow, God made this, and there is a purpose in it that He has." Like some stories could simply be myths, and not in the sense they are fantasies, but they explain why things are the way they are. Genesis 1 could be a poem, that may not be intended to be read literally.

"(Before you decide to not go to ENC, and to call me a heretic, relax. It's not all ENC that has made me think about stuff.) Things are much broader than they seemed to me years ago (years ago meaning high school....gosh I feel old). One thing I am fairly sure of is that the Bible is not a science textbook. It gives us the essentials for following God, and basically we can figure other stuff out on our own."

Sunday, December 31, 2006

2007 Here I come!

Well folks, it's the end of 2006. I suppose I could make some rather interesting entry, but I think what I'm going to do is read through my Xangas from the year. That should be interesting in itself. But here is some of my year in a nutshell:

~Belize and Guatemala
~more quizzing, and going to regionals
~showing up to two MAD Impact weekends, unannounced or so
~turning 19 (not terribly exciting)
~writing letters and getting cards from friends at camp
~being introduced to new music
~hearing Michael Card and Rob Bell speak
~seeing Mat Kearney in concert
~having a crazy semester
~growing closer to God
~having friends visit campus (whether Angel and my cousins this fall, or people at FOL)
~getting really involved in quizzing this year
~babysitting a LOT
~working at CAS

Hmm that's about all I've got right now. I'm going to watch the video for this song, and leave you with the lyrics and also the video. It's called "Wonder of It All (Next Year)" by Monday Morning.




all my hopes and dreams inside
visions lurk behind my eyes
something new behind it grows
and You smile as my heart knows
to be another still with You
I’m the one that loved You through
but I’m still nothing next to You
I’m still nothing next to You

what I’ve seen and where I’ve been
what’s breaking out and breaking in
who I love and I despise
melting into compromise
how I’ve changed and how I’ve learned
becoming less becoming more

but I’m still nothing next to you
I’m still nothing without you

the sickness my mind’s battled long
the center of my every song
the beauty of my voice it fades
into a spiritual cascade
flowing from Your perfect smile
I’ve avoided all the while
but I’m still nothing next to you
I’m still nothing next to you

all the future seems unclear
never moving never near
but You hold me as I scream
wake me from my wicked dream
something out there waits for me
hand in hand we wait for it
but I’m still nothing next to You
I’m still nothing without to You

and the wonder of it all is I’m still standing
and the wonder of it all is we’re still standing
never planned it
and I wonder where I’ll be next year

will You stand right next to me
will You hold me faithfully
should I question all these things
what makes me so deserving
of something that I’ve thrown away
coming back for me today
when I’m still nothing next to You
I’m still nothing next to You

hearts are broken just to mend
when will my brokenness end
lending my mind to dreams it seems
some things are never meant to be
but faith it lingers as I die
inside surrending I cry
I’m still nothing next to You

I’m still nothing without You

and the wonder of it all is I’m still standing
and the wonder of it all is we’re still standing
never planned it
and I wonder where I’ll be next year

time is a broken dream
time is an
endless change
time is an offering
time has an endless sting
time has a world to bring
time, it’s a broken dream
mended while lovers sing

and the wonder of it all is I’m still standing
and the wonder of it all is we’re still standing
never planned it
and I wonder where I’ll be next year

I'm ready for the possibilities....2007, here I come!

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

what college is like

(this is basically a post to answer the question, "How's college?")

The past couple days I've been packing up, preparing to leave. Which is almost anticlimactic I suppose because I'm not leaving till Friday. Our room is looking bare, and it's sad. Rachel's leaving tomorrow, and I'll definitely miss her. I pretty much won't have a roommate till next fall.

I like things the way they are. I probably would've been all about political conservativism after the Congress of Vienna (sorry, that's what happens when you study too much...I started talking about generativity when Rachel had Everwood on last night). Or not. I've figured out how things work, whether it's floor/room dynamics, the SGA, classwork, etc.


(Second Willy 05-06)

I'm not sure what I want to be "when I grow up." I'm doing a lot of thinking, about what I really want to do, and where God wants me, and stuff like that.

I made it through a lot this first year at ENC. Dealing with events at home from a distance (Pastor's leaving, Sarah getting married) sort of gave me a different perspective. I found a church I really like (South Weymouth) and will probably stick with it while I'm here. I got involved in a couple of ministries: JUMP and Bible Quizzing. JUMP, that was fun, but I don't know that I'll do it next year (sorry Preston).

Quizzing--that was awesome. I went to kickoff in Maine (marking off yet another US state I've visited) with Liz, and that led me to become involved at Wolly. I scorekept at the quizzes, and was able to get to know teens from all over the district. I got to go to Regionals and get to know the New England quizzers better.

I came knowing a fair number of people, from either Nazarene stuff or other ENC weekends. And now, I think I have found my niche with people, though sometimes I choose to shove my face in books or just plain keep to myself. Some of my friendships here have changed, due to new friends coming in the picture or just not spending quality time with them. As far as boys go, I haven't had a boyfriend yet. To quote myself the other day, "Grrr boys." It makes things somewhat easier, but still. Though I do have a couple of good guy friends (as in they are good friends that happen to be guys that I don't necessary "like"), which is nice. I'll leave it at that.

Classes: I'm learning new stuff (which is a good thing), and I think I'm doing fairly well. Some of my classes (Physical Science and First Year Seminar, *cough*cough*) didn't impress me. Other classes, like Western Heritage and Contemporary Questions, made me do a lot of thinking, and often a lot of studying. I was surprised--well I mean, I had to force myself--that I did get homework done while I was at Regionals, and even took a calc 2 quiz.

As far as old friendships go, I'm not sure what's going to happen with them. People came up for FOL in March, and I switched between wanting to spend as much time with them as possible and wanting to just let them do their own thing. It was strange having Chelsea and Cassi here once, because it was like a combination of two worlds. It was great having the Central PA people here in October, because with A Capella gone that weekend, I could hang out with Pastor Mark, Norm, Pat, Sam, Ben, Cassie, and Olivia. Cassie still makes me laugh. So as far as Impact friends go, I think I can still have the friendships be in the same form. I sometimes feel like I've taken on a quasi-leader role with them and other teens in my church. Since I've been at college, I've changed; everyone else has changed.

I got a job babysitting once every week or so, and that was nice. I learned how to navigate the T bus system, and not get lost. I still like carrying my Boston map with me when I go into the city. Boston doesn't seem like that big of a city to me. Maybe it's because of its actual size, or maybe because I'm so used to it, but it really doesn't seem like it's that bad of a city. Yes, some parts are sketchy--majorly sketchy--but it's a pretty cool city to live near.

I've done a lot of crazy things this year: pulled an allnighter at Wolly beach, went into the city to watch part of the Marathon, said some random stuff.

I got to go to Belize and Guatemala too. That was amazing. My favorite parts were the three or so days on the island, and the three days in Guatemala. I love Spanish!!!! I was really nervous before I went, because I pretty much only knew Sarah R (and she's graduating now), but by the end, I got to know everyone else and especially Ann E. pretty well.

I also went to a couple of great concerts, without having to drive an hour away and clear it with my mom. Magon and I saw Mat Kearney live in Boston, and got our pictures with him (people asked, "who's that guy in the picture with you?"). Then Bethany Dillon, Shane and Shane, and Aaron Shust performed at Wolly Church, and we had fairly good seats.

This week is slowly a week of goodbyes. I said goodbye to the Wolly quizzers on Sunday. Melissa and Johanna are going to Olivet next year, so I probably won't see them that much.

Rachel leaves tomorrow, and today we packed up a lot in our room. It's like the beginning of the year again or something. Our hallway and lounge looks like a Goodwill donation center of sorts, with everyone's boxes and stuff. I'm kinda glad A Cappella will still be around when I leave, because that means I'm not one of the last to really leave.


(our sad room)


(our sad room #2)

This summer I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I really need a summer job, and hopefully I can work at Camp Wright. I also applied to Old Navy in Severna Park, so maybe if I get that job and not the camp, then I can stay at Daddy's and borrow his old van and take a couple college classes. But I need to find out soon.

I plan to go to Family Camp and see my teens and preteens and other families. Yayness. I think the only other ENCers I'll see this summer are Ben ("from MD"), Jocelyn, Troxler, Junior, Paul Sapp, the other two on the Summer Min team, Kerri, and that's probably it.

Next year is going to be kind of crazy, with a new chapel schedule (and therefore a new time schedule thing), new SGA, new students (yay for Meghan W.!!!), and a lack of the old seniors.

Dang, I wrote a freaking essay. Oh well. Now I'll leave you with this picture that I took walking home the other day. I love how everything is flowering and green around here. Though, today was rainy, cold, and gross. I really hope it clears up before I go, and especially for graduation.